It has been four years since the deadliest shooting in the modern history of the United States.
Sometimes, I close my eyes and I can still see the lights and the panic in my coworkers’ faces, who like me, were working at that October 1st festival, but the main memory that still takes away my sleep is the sound of the bullets.
At just 15 years old, I experienced something that I hope no one else has to go through. There have been years of therapy and support so that I could understand the real impact that this event had on my life. Regardless of the time that has passed, every time we get closer to the anniversary of the event or around some holidays, I start suffering from anxiety, stress, sadness, and even nightmares. But thanks to the help that I have received through the Vegas Strong Resiliency Center, today I know that I’m not alone and that it’s normal to have these emotions.
To anyone who has gone through a similar situation and hasn’t searched for help, I want to remind you that you are not alone. There are free resources available, even for family members of those affected by this traumatic event, regardless of your immigration or economic status.
Now, I try to look at the bright side of such a dark moment. Regardless of me being the youngest survivor, I learned that I cannot take life for granted and to always try to be the best version of myself. That is why learning to process and heal has been one of the most important goals of my life during the last couple of years—because I don’t want that instant to keep taking away more moments of my life.
That is the reason why I keep reminding everyone that it’s never too late, we only have one life, seek help. The Vegas Strong Resiliency Center is available to listen to you and offer resources and support. They can help you connect with a trauma therapist, join peer support groups, or connect with other healing activities and events.
Reach out by calling 702-455-2433. If you need help after hours or during the weekends or holidays, you can call the national Disaster Distress Helpline at 1-800-985-5990 or text “TalkWithUs” to 66746.
This website has videos and information that you may also find useful. Be sure to visit the Remembrance Events page for information about various in-person and online initiatives meant to heal and honor during this time.